Goodbye,for now.

I have weighed the pro's and con's of writing this particular post for the last month or so,and I have finally decided to do so,probably because I am becoming somewhat of an insomniac and don't feel my filter completely turned on right now. So,here goes...

Here we are a year later...a year ago last week we found out we could have a baby even though the odds were unfavorable,but we were still on cloud 9,we felt we could take control of the wedding debt,and we knew for sure we would own a beautiful house. A year later...we are not pregnant,we are in considerably more debt,we got flat out denied for a home,Mike lost his job (thankfully he found a new one),and we are moving 400 miles away from our families and friends,and neither of us want to. 2011 was not a good year by any means,and sadly I left 2010 expecting for this to be the best year of our lives. As far as starting a family goes...that is still undecided whether or not we will continue to try. After a year of unsuccessful trying for a baby is when you are deemed the dreaded "I" word...that added to my translocation...lets just say the odds are not good at this point. Not to mention my heart and mind cannot physically or emotionally take any more unsuccessful attempts for now. I may just have to accept that I may not ever be a mommy...and be okay with that.

I really planned to write more,but that is all my heart can come up with. So, goodnight and goodbye....for now.

Heather